3-27-4
I feel invisible in a world where I'm constantly noticed. I get compliments all the time. You're beautiful, you're sweet, but they don't really see me. No one truly knows the pain and the emptiness I sometimes feel inside. Not all the time just sometimes. I stand there and I feel like I am gonna disappear. I'm gonna just fade away and no one will notice. The times when I'm alone and I try to hear God's voice to give me answers to what my next move should be, what my next steps should be and I hear SILENCE! My soul feels empty, I feel alone. I know that Jesus is the solution but when do I get resolutions. I don't know maybe my prayer is wrong. I try to have unselfish, true prayer but obviously I'm missing something. What is it that I'm not doing. What am I missing? What haven't I said? What haven't I done? Don't I deserve happiness or a least those thins that make me happy? I'm invisible. No one can see me.
Oh suga, I know the feeling, and I think it takes a lot of courage to name it; call it out -- especially in this forum. I want you to know that *I* see you as a human being doing the best she can, which at the end of the day is all we can do. I'm here if ever you need me. Trust me, I have these moments too, but they do pass, thankfully.
ReplyDeleteOh snap! This is from 2004! Wow -- then all praises for PHASES!
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Aint it a trip when you go back and read your old writings! You be like wow!
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