Usually on a Saturday I am looking in my closet trying to find something to wear for Sunday. But its Saturday night and I am watching T.V.not thinking about what I am wearing on Sunday. Sunday's for me are usually Church, Brunch, family and naps.
Lately they have been breakfast, DVR and Naps. I have become...how shall I say..indifferent when it comes to "going to church" I LOVE GOD don't get it twisted but church of today is not like when we were growing up. Church used to be that beacon of light that safe haven, that meeting place. But lately its just big business and no one's life is changing. Not talking about my church just talking in general. We got churches all over Oakland. Preachers driving up in their nice cars and expensive suits and shoes but riding past all the D-boys on the corner and the young ladies selling their bodies. And no one stops to talk with these people.
We go into church and act as if they are not even there. We go inside our church houses talking about we love the Lord but will not speak or look at each other. Lifting up these "holy hands" and destroying each other with our gossip or negative talk. We shout the house down for a couple of hours and most come right back out the same way. NOTHING Changes. These so called preachers talk a good talk. Telling the congregation they need to get out of the four walls but they won't or don't do it themselves. How can we keep having our annual days, appreciations, celebrations while our children are dying in the streets?
Now I realize that with good comes bad but we should not be comfortable with the way things are. I wonder is God pleased? Something is wrong with this picture. But hey who am I. This very well could just be a phase I am going through. I know there are some churches out there trying to make a difference. My current church the Pastor teaches Empowerment, commitment and Love. But the Pastor darn near has to bust a blood vessesl to get people to give God some praise. They act like they doing God a favor by showing up. Selfish. My father's church is an outreach ministry bringing in souls that are otherwise looked past. They are working hard serving a community that really doesn't want to change so its a long hard road. So yes there are a few but that's just it a few. I know the word says don't get weary in doing good you will reap if you faint not. And as long as I do my part in sharing God's love I can rest in that. But I'm kinda over it. So I ask What's wrong with this picture?
I believe in outreach. It tells other souls that people do care, it tells them, "Yes, I know you are human too, with hurts and ills, just like me." There is a strength, a pride, a sense of belonging when outreach happens. I've felt it myself. I believe in outreach. I've seen that society and church have become a fashion runway, a place to go see who is driving the finest cars & wearing the hottest & best clothing.
ReplyDeleteGod knows your soul. He knows my needs, he is the only one I need to impress.
I don't have time to go to church anymore. School and graveyard takes too much from me. But that's ok, God knows my plan. He knows I talk with him when I drive, while I shower, he's anywhere I go. So today I will smile at someone, tell them how nice they look. Make them feel good. That's the beginning of outreach.
YES SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE, AND GOD IS NOT PLEASED. PEOPLE GIVING THE SAME OLD EXCUSES JUST SO THEY CAN HAVE A REASON TO DO WRONG. I KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE OVER THE WHOLE CHURCH THING. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU HAVE BEEN IN CHURH YOUR ENTIRE LIFE, BUT YOU MUST REMEMBER CHANGE BEGINS WITH WHO YOU SEE IN THE MIRROR EVERYDAY. AS YOU OFTEN SAY DARE TO DREAM. SOONDS LIKE YOU GOT A MINISTRY STIRRING INSIDE OF YOU, AND IT DOES NOT HAVE TO BE BASED OUT OF A CHURCH. DO YO OWN THANG. DON'T GET ME WRONG I BELIEVE IN MAKING YO WAY TO THE HOUSE OF THE LORD. IT SHOWS HIM HOW MUCH WE HONOR HIM AND ADORE HIM AND LOVE HIM. IT IS A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN GO TO WORSHIP WITH OTHER BELIVERS AND FEEL HIS SPIRIT MOVING SO STRONGLY.I LOVE COMING OUT OF CHURH FEELING THAT GOOD FEELING. LIKE YOU CAN JUST GO AND LEAVE ALL YOUR WORRIES AND YOUR CARES THERE. PEOPLE REACH OUT TO PRAY FOR YOU AND YOU FEEL GODS LOVE ALL AROUND. THERE'S NOTHING LIKE IT!
ReplyDeleteDON'T GIVE UP YET. WHATEVER YOU'RE SEARCHING FOR IT IS RIGHT THERE INSIDE OF YOU.
LOVE YA SONDIE
Dont worry bellamy. I've not given up. Just frustrated I know change starts with me so cant be pointing fingers if I'm not willing to put in work..but "My Ministry"? Girl please..LOL
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