HOLDING ON AND RIDING IT OUT

I am very frustrated. I'm trying to maintain because I really think I'm pms-ing but I cant shake this feeling. I'm getting tired of being sick and tired. I feel like I'm marching in place. No movement at all. I have prayed and cried and cried and prayed. I don't like to complain. I am healthy, blessed, employed, loved . But I feel trapped. I don't know if I'm strong enough to stand. I know I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me but I don't know if I have a desire to be this strong. I want it easy. I don't want to fight. My vision totally different than the actual view. I realize in this its not always promised peaches and cream but that's what I want. I'm not angry just over it. Like really I could walk away and feel nothing but relief. In this situation not a good place to be. But I trust God and that old saying if he brought you to it he will bring you through it. So I suppose I am holding on and riding it out. I look to the hills my help comes from the Lord. BUT DEAR LORD COME NOW!!!!

BROTHERS AND SISTERS

I woke up early this morning and could not go back to sleep. Normally I will say a quick prayer and wait for a few to hear from God. My mama always told me when you wake up like that God wants you to pray. But this morning I just went to the bathroom and got something to drink and turned on the TV. I feel like a missed the mark this morning. I should have been praying. Some friends of mine tragically lost their brother last night and I feel like that is who I should have been praying for. I know I had no way of knowing what was going on but its moments like this that make me remember. Its not at all about me. Life is about moments and what we can do to help one another. I am not close to these young ladies but I truly admire them. They are an extremely close family so it hurts my heart that they have to go through this.

It made me take a step back and appreciate what I have. I have a brother who I don't see every day but I can still talk to him or see him if I want. So I immediately texts him and told him I loved him and to have a good day. I texts him because I know he was on his way to church. But I will call him later just so I can hear his voice. I have a sister who I pray for daily. I am not sure what is going on with her and I am worried. There is nothing in the street for her. She has a family that loves her and a son that needs her. You can not make someone do what is right. So the tears I cried for those sisters this morning in the loss of their brother. I cried also for my sister. I need her to get her life back on track before its too late. Hug your brother or sister if you can. If you can not reach them call them, email them, text them. Tomorrow is not promised. Pray for your family daily. Love one another and keep God first.